2012

At the start of 2012 I sat down and looked at my life and made some new year's resolutions, they were based on the knowledge I had of myself at that time so they were the general things, lose weight, get a job, take the kids on an adventure, you know the kind of thing.  I am please to say I have achieved almost none of them :-)

On December 31st 2011 I was a married, mother of two who had no idea that fandom even existed and therefore considered herself a freak and a geek and many more things besides.  All my new years resolutions were about changing myself to 'fit in' with the world around me but i didn't do any of it.

I am now a single mother of two, still without a job, a few more pounds on and a whole new life.  I consider my year to have been rather successful even though I failed at everything I set out to do :-)

I have written all kinds of good, bad and down right awful fic, I have studied programmes in great detail, and had people to talk to about them and to point out the really important parts I've missed even after the fourth watch through and I have learnt how to use the internet, ok maybe that's still a work in progress but what is life if its not about learning?

A group of really lovely people (yes you there reading this, I mean you) have read my moaning and sent their best wishes when the husband was finally dispatched and two people were very much at the eye of the storm in all that and somehow they still treat me like a functioning human being even though they have seen me at my very worst.

I have gain information about so many non fandom related subjects, some of it I probably didn't need to know, some I didn't want to and some I didn't think I wanted to until I did but information and learning are what drives us forward and makes us more complete people so I'll take it all in and maybe one day find a use for it.

All in all for what appears to all the people who know nothing about my fandom life as a disastrous year that they want to commiserate with me about 2012 has been really quite amazingly good. :-)

So this time I'm not making new year resolutions, twelve months is way too long to think about, instead I am going to write myself a January to do list.

1) take the kids somewhere new
2) Reduce my caffeine in take in the run up to giving it up completely for lent
3) finish the original story I'm writing
4) Add to the John/Lestrade fic as I have promised my fellow J/L lovers I will if they will
5) apply for at least two jobs


To everyone reading this, I hope your 2012 was, when all balanced out, a good year and that 2013 is even better.

PB xx