this is a moan, sensible people will stop reading now you have been warned

So today I've been out and about getting rained on, its been dry all the time I'm inside but somehow it rains whenever I go out.
 Normally this would just make me smile at the madness of the world and get on with things but its really bugged me today.  On Tuesday's both kids are out Shorty has School and Tiny has nursery so being not exactly flush with money since their daddy moved out I don't have the heating on on Tuesdays.  Thursdays are the same, I have lots of jumpers and blankets and it keeps the gas bill down which is always a useful thing but when you get wet you never really get dry and as the heating and hot water are connected I can't even jump in the shower to warm up so it all gets really not very funny.

The other thing that probably didn't help the depressed feeling is that on each of my trips out I ran into some member of ex's family or one of his friends who blanked me as if I didn't exist, only four months ago they were supposedly my family and friend as well but apparently I am well and truly on my own a  long way from my family.  I have one lovely friend just around the corner but as she's due to drop a tiny bundle of joy anytime I really need to be there for her not the other way round right now.

I find myself wondering through the many possible things the ex has told people about why we split, he made me promise not to tell anyone anything before he left and until I have a job to pay for the kids I certainly won't be telling anyone but I do wonder if people's reactions to me would be the same if they knew the truth although as one of the clan families of the area they probably wouldn't.


Anyway that's my moaning done and if you read it you did so at your own risk I told to stop reading ;-)